29 June 1996 New Braja
Understanding The Moods Of Our Mantras
[Hari-katha spoken by Nitya Lila Pravista Om Visnupada Astottara Sata Sri Srimad Bhaktivedanta Narayana Gosvami Maharaja – Srila Gurudeva]
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We will have to add something in our sadhana-bhajana. Do you know that there is a book called Hari bhakti vilasa? What we should do and should not; everything is there in the book. We should try to follow the injunctions stated therein. For Archana there is a book descending from Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, through Srila Vakreshvara Pandit, Srila Gopala Guru Gosvami, and his disciple Dhyanachandra Gosvami. There is a paddhati, arcana paddhati, and the two forms of worship are explained—bhava marga, and arcana marga there. Arcana marga has been existent since ancient times, but Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu came to especially give bhava marga. But for those who weren’t qualified, Mahaprabhu told them to follow Vaidhi bhakti. In Vaidhi bhakti, archanam is also to be done. So arcana should not be speculated on; by thinking, “This is good, this is bad.” But we will have to follow Hari bhakti vilas and all other scriptures. If you are doing arati, then you will have to sing the kirtana of the arathi. If you are doing arathi of Gurudeva, then you will have to sing the arati song of Gurudeva. If you are doing arathi of Mahaprabhu, then you should sing, “Jaya Jaya Gorachander arotika sobha.”
If you are doing the arati of Radha-Krishna, then you will have to simultaneously sing the arathi song of Radha-Krishna—“Jaya Jaya Radha Krishna Yugala milana.” And if you are not chanting this song while performing arati, then there is a lack in your worship. So we must sing while we perform arathi. The songs are also not long; I see that you spend more than an hour in performing arathi. So the performance of arati must be accompanied with the singing of arati songs. There are many kirtanas being sung in the background also, so we can adjust if we like. Those who follow me must certainly do what I have said.
Do you remember the kirtana, “Jaya Jaya Radha Krishna Yugala Milana?” Radha and Krishna are Conjugal there. “Arati kore Lalitadi sakhi gana”—Lalitha is performing arathi. You should see that the personality who is performing arathi is Lalitha herself. Standing behind Lalitha, Visakha is engaged in chamara seva and is also doing kirtana. All the sakhis are present—Tungavidya is playing the mridanga, Chitra is playing the karatalas, and lakhs of sakhis are standing, beholding this very beautiful scene. One Gopi is playing the Vina. Tungavidga, Chitra, and the other sakhis are all experts. Many instruments are being played and the Gopis’ are singing accompanied by the chiming of the karatalas and other instruments. What are they singing? “Jaya Jaya Radha Krishna Yugala milana, arathi koroye lalithadi sakhi gana.”
“Madana Mohana rupa tribhanga sundara,” how is Krishna standing? In a tri-bhanga pose (three fold bending form). [Gurudeva points to the different parts of Krishna’s body that are curved.] This scene is very beautiful. Krishna is playing on His flute and a peacock feather adorns His head. Krishna also has a vanamala (forest garland) decorating His chest. Standing in this pose, Krishna is affectionately looking towards Srimati Radhika and smiling. “Madana-mohana rupa,” anyone who sees this form, even Kamadeva himself will be charmed by beholding this form. “Tri bhanga sundara,” pitambara, Krishna… here I am not seeing Krishna wearing a pitambar, is He wearing one? We should try to give Krishna a pitambara. It is so good, so we should try to give Krishna a pitambara. “Pitambara sikhi pucca cuda manohara, Lalita Madhava bame Vrishabanu kanya,” Vrishabanu kanya—Srimati Radhika is standing on the left side of Krishna. What does the word, “Lalita Madhava” mean? This word has been explained in the Ujjvala Nilamani. “Lalitha Madhava,” who is Madhava? He is lalit. Lalit Madhava is so beautiful, He never stands or sits with Yashoda, Nanda baba, or the sakhas. Where is Lalit Madhava? Where Srimati Radhika is; there, is Lalit Madhava. At that time, Srimati Radhika will be called, “Lalit Madhavi.” There are many explanations to the word, “Lalit.” Only Krishna is “Dhira Lalita Nayaka,” Rama is not dhira lalita nayaka, neither is Dvarakadisha, or Vaikunthadipati—Lalit. Subal Sakha is not Lalit, the son of Yashoda is not Lalit. Who is Lalit? He, who has Srimati Radhika standing to His left, and where the sakhis—Lalita, Visakha, Citra, Campakalatha, Tungavidya, Rangadevi, Indulekha, Sudevi, Rupa-manjari, Rati-manjari, Lavanga-manjari are present; there He can be Lalit. So by singing this song, so many moods and thoughts will come; as if you are seeing Him. And Lalita is doing arati.
Here, Srimati Radhika is called, “Vrishabanu-kanya,” why not, “Kirtika-kanya?” Because Srimati Radhika is especially beloved to Her father Vrishabanu Maharaja; more than even Her mother Kirtika-devi. Srimati Radhika wasn’t born from the womb of Kirtika-devi, She was floating on a lotus on the waters of the Yamuna. And sometimes, Srimati Radhika is born from the womb of Kirtika-devi. But yet, Vrishabanu Maharaja loves Srimati Radhika more than Kirtika-devi. But for Krishna, Yashoda Ma loves Him more than Nanda baba. Nanda baba also loves Krishna, but Yashoda Ma’s love exceeds his. As for Srimati Radhika, the opposite is seen.
“Nila-vasana,” Srimati Radhika wears blue clothes. But Krishna has stolen Her clothes and dressed Himself. “Nila vasana gauri rupe gune dhanya.”
“Nana vidhi alankara kore jhalamala,” Srimati Radhika wears many kinds of ornaments that are decorated by Krishna Himself. Who decorated Srimati Radhika? Krishna Himself. And then Lalita tells Krishna, “Oh You don’t know how to decorate Radhaji!” And she gives Him a slight nudge.
Krishna retorts, “Oh you don’t know, I know more!” And they start to quarrel. Seeing their quarrel, Srimati Radhika is laughing.
“Nana vidhi alankara kore jhalamala, Hari mana vimohana vadana ujjvala.”
“Hari mana vimohana,” Srimati Radhika’s love is so overpowering, that Krishna gives His heart to Her. Or Radhika takes Her heart.
“Vishakadi sakhi gana nana rage gaya,” Vishaka and many sakhis are singing kirtans. Some of these sakhis are Vishaka, Champakalatha, Chitra, Rupa-manjari, Rati-manjari, Lavanga-manjari, Ananga-manjari, and all the sakhis. They sing various kinds of melodious kirtans.
“Priya-narma sakhi jata chamara dhulaya,” who are the priya-narma sakhis? They are Lalita, Visakha, and after that, Citra, Campakalatha, Tungavidya, and all the other sakhis. There are so many sakhis. They are doing chamara-seva, very beautifully and humbly. Their posture is so good and marvelous that Krishna cannot; but be enchanted.
“Sri Radha Madhava pade sarasija ase,” Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakura is praying… This is the arati kirtan of Sri Radha and Krishna. Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakura is praying that by this song, “Radha Madhava pada,” ‘sarasija’ means lotus. Sri Radha Madhava’s feet are like the tender blossoms of a lotus. And Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakura wants to serve those lotus feet of Sri Radha and Krishna. This way, Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakura sings. So when arati is going on, we can add these moods to our worship. If you are worshipping and doing arati; at that time if we sing the song, “Kesava dhrta Narahari rupa,” what is the use there? Can Narahari go to Vrindavana? But Svamiji gave this mantra when he not yet initiating disciples with the Radha and Krishna mantra. For common persons who should by any means be induced for the worship of Sri Radha and Krishna; for them Svamiji gave this mantra. This is called, “Gathering of devotees.” At initial times, Svamiji did this. Those who are beginners should perform this worship, but those who want to advance, should perform their worship in their houses. Let the daily programs run in the temples as they were before. But when I am with my family and some rare, like minded devotees, we should try to follow these processes. Then we will see that our devotion is going on nicely.
One thing, I have heard from some devotees that they offer bhoga (unoffered foodstuffs) to Sri Radha Krishna, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu. While offering the bhoga they offer prayers like: namo maha vadanyaya… or Vancha kalpa tarubhyas ca krpa sindhu..but this is not the mantra of bhoga. When any novice devotee knowing nothing and is in the preliminary stages of devotion, he can chant the mantras. But in mind, he will think, “I am giving and offering these very beautiful, delicious foodstuffs to You and You should take it.” This will be the conception of those in the beginning stage of devotion. If you come in the line of what I am saying i.e., the line of Hari bhakti Vilasa, Srila Gopala Guru Gosvami, Srila Dhyanachandra Gosvami, up to Srila Bhaktisiddhanta Sarasvati Thakura, my Gurudeva, Svamiji… Each subject has its own mantra.
[Pointing to the audience:] I think all of you have taken second initiation. Who has not taken second initiation?
So I should not declare all these views in public. So I am giving an outline. We will have to follow the mantras when we offer the bhoga to Thakuraji. Don’t think, “I am offering,” otherwise it will be rejected. Do you understand my point of view? Why will it be rejected? You are not having even saranagati. Do you know the six symptoms of saranagati?
Some symptoms are: “Krishna will support me. Krishna will nourish me. He will certainly save me. He will give anything we want.” If you have so much faith in Krishna, then why do you beg from many rich people? Why? When any suffering comes, why do we tell, “O save me God! Save me God!” Why do we beseech Him like this? Has Prahlada Maharaja beseeched Him like this or not? Can you tell? When Hiranyakashipu wanted to kill him, did Prahlada beg Krishna, “O Krishna save me!”
You know Haridasa Thakura. He was beaten in 22 market places and he was about to die. But did he ever say, “O Krishna save me!” He has never said so. But why did He never petition Krishna for His help? He knows that, “Krishna will save me.” He had no doubt at all and indeed, he was saved. So this is saranagati (surrender). Krishna will not take anything from those who are not saranagat (surrendered) to Him. And He will also not take from the hands of those who are not chanting one lakh of Harinama.
Then what to do? So you should offer them, but to whom? You know that your Gurudeva is bona fide, and he is saranagat to Krishna. Moreover, he has so much affection and he is Guru-sakhi. He is very near and dear to Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu in his male form. If you will offer it to your bona fide Gurudeva, it will be offered to Krishna; certainly it will be offered. There is no doubt at all. But if I am giving the bhoga by myself, it is doubtful if Krishna will take or not. We are not bona fide Vaishnavas yet, so we must call Gurudeva. “O Gurudeva come accept your seat; ‘idam asanam.’”
“Aing Gurave namah.” “Idam acamaniyam, this is the water for washing your mouth Gurudeva.” While offering bhoga, you should think, “Gurudeva has taken his seat. So I will give it in his hands. He will not take it for himself. He will offer it to Radha-Krishna.”
Listening to our prayers, Gurudeva will call, “O Srimati Radhike, You should come and offer it to Your Svami, Your istadeva, and beloved—Krishna. Because He will not take from anyone else’s hands. If You give it to Him, surely He will take.”
So Gurudeva will call Srimati Radhika, “O Srimati Radhike, my Istadevi, my Svamini! You should come and give it to Krishna.”
When They are both seated, Srimati Radhika will fan Krishna and tell Him, “O this laddu is so beautiful! You should take it first.” And Krishna takes this laddu. Srimati Radhika gives another laddu called ‘manohara laddu.’
“O You have not taken this chutney.” This chutney is very beautiful and delicious. Krishna will eat the chutney and remark, “This chutney is very delectable.” And Srimati Radhika will give another spoonful of chutney. All the preparations are very delicious and ambrosial and Srimati Radhika will request Krishna, “You should take this preparation, and this one.” Listening to Srimatiji Krishna will take. There is a special mantra for this, vancha kalpa tarubhyasca will not do. When there are many Vaishnavas, we will say, “Vancha kalpa tarubhyasca, kripa sindhubhya…” this prayer will not go to Goloka, why? It is of sadhana-bhakti, but in Goloka all are the parikaras (associates) of Radha Krishna. All are the sakhis and sakhas of Radha Krishna. Mother Yashoda and all the associates are there. We cannot tell this mantra there, but we will chant this mantra here. Do you understand? We will chant, “Vancha kalpa tarubhyasca…,” at a gathering of devotees where we will hear harikatha. This way, we will honor all Vaishnavas. We should not chant this mantra at the time of taking mahaprasadam or when offering mahaprasadam. You can chant, “Namo maha vadanyaya…” after arati or at the time of prayer, especially when you are beginning to chant. You can remember this mantra while chanting harinama and supplicate Mahaprabhu, “O Mahaprabhu, I am so worthless, but You are maha-vadanyaya. Namo maha vadanyaya Krishna prema…” But you should not chant this mantra at the time of bhoga. Mantras should be chanted after due deliberations. We have been told to chant special mantras at special times. There is a special mantra of Radha and Krishna, but you should not offer it to Gurudeva and tell him, “You should take and after that, you should give it to Radha and Krishna.” These are not symptoms of proper etiquette. So while performing arati if Gurudeva’s altar is separate from Radha-Krishna’s altar and Caitanya Mahaprabhu’s altar, then we can offer the arati to Gurudeva first and keep the lamp there. After that, you should take another lamp with freshly lit ghee wicks and offer it to Radha-Krishna and Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu. And when arati is finished, the lamp should be given to Gurudeva and then to all. During an offering, the offering is first given to Sri Radha-Krishna and Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu. After that, the Guru-sakhi will give the remnants to all the sakhis. Guru will not take the entire offering and offer the remnants to Radha-Krishna and Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu. This is not proper. Arcana will be offered to Gurudeva first, but offerings should be offered to Radha-Krishna and Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu first. And if there are three altars, then three separate bhogs can be offered. But after offering it to Radha-Krishna and Mahaprabhu, the remnants should be given to Gurudeva, Lalita, Visakha, and all others. We should always remember all these principles. Then our offerings will be in line and They will accept.
So, at the time of vandana and stava-stuti, we will do all these things. But at the time of arati, only the special arati songs for Gaurachandra, Nityananda Prabhu, or another, or Radha-Krishna should be sung, like I explained before. But don’t disturb anyone and make problems. What Svamiji has established and is being continued, let it be continued. But who those who want to advance more should practice their sadhana in their rooms, in their houses with some devotees. This should be done so that no problems will come.
Devotee: So you should call for your Gurudeva, so that he will offer it to Radha-Krishna, if I understand correctly?
Srila Gurudeva: Yes. First we should call Gurudeva, but not with the intention of offering the bhoga entirely to Gurudeva. We should call Gurudeva with the mantras, “Idam acanam, aing gurave namah,” and if you think that Guru has come, then give the bhoga to Gurudeva and petition him, “You should offer. I am not able to; I am not qualified to offer.” And he will call Srimati Radhika. But mantras should be chanted by us within our minds.
In this way, we should offer. “Idam acamanam, idam acamaniyam.” And after that, when Krishna has taken, we should chant, “idam acamaniyam,” and the Radha-Krishna mantra. And after that, we chant, “idam tambulam,” where we offer betel-nuts to Radha and Krishna. Gurudeva gives the betel-nut preparation to Lalita and Visakha and they give it to Srimati Radhika, who gives it to Krishna.
Then, “etad puspanjalim—” flowers are offered to Gaura-Nityananda Prabhu, or to Gaurachandra and to Radha and Krishna. This is called puspanjalim. Everything is done, and garlands are offered. And after that, you should do arati in midday. So all this should become systematic. Who will give these instructions? Siksha guru may tell. So, I think that a siksha guru is also needed, to whom we have the same faith as our diksha guru and who is in the line of our diksha guru. He is so advanced. And if he is not advanced as much, and our Guru is not available or he has departed from this world, then a madhyama-adhikari who is very qualified and more advanced than us; he can make us qualified.
At the time of arati, we should have some moods. Without moods, arati is not performed. When you are making an offering, you should follow the right mood. You can follow the mood of Yashoda Ma, who is giving everything and distributing. Or being very qualified and having a little greed, you desire to follow the moods of the Gopis’; then you will see that Srimati Radhika is giving the offering to Krishna. But we should try to follow Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakuraji, Srila Narottama das Thakuraji, and our Guruvarga.
“Bhaja bhaktavatsala Sri Gaurahari,” this kirtan should be sung. And after it has been sung, “Yashomati Nandana, Vraja vara nagara should be sung.”
[Srila Gurudeva leads the devotees in singing, “Yashomati nandana, Vraja vara nagara.”]
These are the processes we have to follow and sing kirtans like these in the right mood. During mangala arati, we should especially remember the way Lalita and Visakha perform arati of Radha and Krishna. Yasoda Ma performs arati of Krishna at 7 or 8 am, when Krishna is going to the forest for cow grazing. She takes away all the ills and sufferings, which may affect her little Krishna. When Lalita and Visakha perform arati, they tell Radha and Krishna, “Now You will have to go to Your own houses.” So we should know all these things. When you chant, sleep, and laziness may grab a hold of you, and you chant with a lack of taste; but yet, you should chant. By force, you will have to tell your mind, “I will not give up on chanting. I should give you a nice lesson.” And then you should tie your sikha to a nail on the wall, that way, you will be prevented from falling asleep. Boys don’t want take any food, but by hook or crook, their mothers’ will feed them. So you will have to chant Harinama with the strongest of determination. You must tell your mind, “I will not give you anything, if you have not chanted sixteen rounds by morning while sitting in one place.” We try to do more than twenty-two rounds in the morning in one sitting.
Tell your body and mind, “I will not give you a drop of water if you will not chant. Indeed, I will not give you anything. O mind, I know that you are a very bad person. I will have you whipped.” We should be determined like this. And after some days, you will see that ruci (taste) has come. And all rogas (diseases) will go away. Then in one sitting, you can chant one lakh of Harinama. There will be no need for you to wander here and there, trying to sit in many places. Nidra (sleep) and idleness will not come. During mid-time you can chant shlokas like:
he Krishna karuna sindho…
tapta kanchana gaurangi radhe vrindavaneshvari…
You should chant these prayers in a mood of longing and humility, and tears will cascade from your eyes. “O Radhike! O Krishna! O Harinama! You are non-different from Your names. O Krishna-nama, You are Krishna Yourself. O Radhike, You are Hare Yourself.” Saying thus, we weep. Then where is the scope for sleep or idleness to arise? We should chant Hare Krishna like this, with these moods from time to time.
Bhajami radham aravinda netram…
Reciting these prayers, we should chant Hare Krishna. Then all our anarthas like sleep, lust, anger, greed, illusion, pride, and envy will fly away. You should weep and pray, “There is no one as sinful and wretched as me. You have given me Your entire treasure trove of mercy, but I am so wretched that I am unaware of Your mercy.”
Do you remember the second shloka of Sikshastakam?
Devotees: Namnam akari bahudha nija sarva sakthis…
Srila Gurudeva: Do you remember the meaning of this shloka?
“O Prabhu! You are endlessly merciful, but I am a bona fide wretched person. None are like me. You are most magnanimous, but I am such a person that I am not accepting Your mercy. O Prabhu! I only need Your mercy and nothing else.” Beseeching thus, and weeping.
Nayanam galad asru dharaya…
We should utter these prayers while weeping, then the six impediments— lust, anger, greed, illusion, pride, and envy will be dispelled. Sleep and idleness will be conspicuous by their absence. Then you can chant Hare Krishna for hours. You can taste this by yourself. After some time, you will see why Svamiji came to give this mood. This mood will dawn on us automatically. This is Krishna Consciousness. You are not to control anyone, only your mind needs to be controlled; nothing else. Don’t try to control anyone, try to control your bad, wicked mind. Don’t criticize anyone; only criticize your mind and your detestable actions. Give honor to everyone, and think, “All are more advanced and honorable than me. I am most wretched.” Thinking like this, chant, “Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare.”
You should contemplate, “Why aren’t my eyes being filled with tears? Why isn’t my heart melting? Oh it is harder than stones; it is steel-cased. What should I do? O Namadeva! You are my only help! None are helpful. Yet, I think that I am a bona fide guru, Vaishnava, and Acharya. I think I can control everyone.”
“This mood comes, so what I am to do Prabhu?” Praying this way, you should continue chanting.
What is the seventh sloka?
Devotees: Yugayita nimisena caksusa pravarsayitam…
Srila Gurudeva: You should think, “I don’t have this mood, but yet—I want to follow. I want to have that mood; a greed.” Then you should continue chanting.
Do you remember the last sloka?
Devotees: Aslisya va pada ratam pinastu mam…
Srila Gurudeva: Who is telling the sloka? Srimati Radhika Herself is. Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu has given everything in Sikshastakam. Very rare, bona fide Vaishanavas can give these impressions in our hearts. And a Vaishnava who does so—he is actually a siksha guru. You will have to learn everything—how to do bhajan, how to do archana, how to offer, and how to do everything systematically with mantras. We will not progress if we are not chanting the proper mantras. It has been stated in Bhakti Rasamrta Sindhu that, “You are not offering all these articles, and you are following Vaidhi bhakti with the proper mantras and paraphernalia of worship. Then it is not offered or not done.”
So we should try. These are for beginners and for those who want to advance. So we should try to advance. Don’t waste your time in criticizing anyone and in trying to control others.
Think, “Gurudeva can control; he is a controller. Krishna, Caitanya Mahaprabhu, Nityananda Prabhu are Controllers. I am not a controller, rather I should be controlled by Them. I should try to control myself.”
Likewise, we should try to develop our Krishna Consciousness. I think you and I both—will be benefited and we can advance in Krishna Consciousness. We should always try to advance in this way. Also, we will have to take care that we don’t commit offenses while we are chanting and hearing. Otherwise, these offenses will spoil everything. All our efforts will be nullified and laid rest to, in the garbage bin. So we should not offend anyone, we should always honor everyone. If you are seeing that a person is wretched and bad, then don’t associate with him. When you across him, offer your dandavat pranamas and tell him, “I should leave.” But don’t criticize him. Guru can criticize and chastise, but we are not masters to chastise. So always be very humble—dina-hina, hankering for bhakti and pray to have your heart melted by devotion. Try to serve Guru and Vaishnavas. If you are chastising Vaishnavas, not honoring them, but at the same time engaging in much service to Gurudeva; even so, Gurudeva will not accept your service. Gurudeva wants you to realize that service to the Vaishnavas is also Guru puja.
If any guru tells, “Don’t serve any Vaishnavas, except for me. Serve only me. You should give all your money to me and not spare a single paisa to any other Vaishnava.” A bona fide guru will not tell like this. He is broad minded and will honor even an ant, acknowledging Krishna’s presence in its heart, he will say, “Krishna is everywhere.”
So first of all, we should try to follow the Upadesamrita of Srila Rupa Gosvami, Manah siksha of Srila Raghunatha das Gosvami, and the Sikshastaka of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu. We should also read and follow Srila Vishvanatha Chakravarthi Thakura’s three books—Bhakti Rasamrita Sindhu-bindhu, Ujjvala Nilamani-kirana, and Laghu Bhagavatamrita-kana. He who has greed to serve Radha Krishna in Vraja, they can read Raga Vartma Candrika. Otherwise, Vaidhi bhakti will not serve as a qualification. But how will that greed come? It comes very rarely. By serving a bona fide, rasika, bhagavat, tattva-jna Vaishnava; greed will arise.
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[Srila Gurudeva begins in mid-sentence:] “If you want, you can go to Navadvipa. Then he you can have it.” Then he will go where? He will go to Navadvipa and search everywhere. Then Nityananda Prabhu, or a bona fide follower, or any disciple like Sri Krishna das Kaviraja Gosvami, and in Navadvipa, Isana Thakura and Vamsivadananda Thakura are always there to help. Saci Maiya and Vishnupriya-devi are always there to help. Vishnupriya-devi took her foot dust and sprinkled it on his head. She tells him, “Now, you can go to Rupa-Sanatana in Vrindavana. Srila Raghunatha das Gosvami, Srila Gopala bhatta Gosvami, Srila Krishna das Kaviraja Gosvami, Srila Jiva Gosvami are also there. Go and take their foot dust. I will imprint a stamp of my foot on your head. Show it to Rupa-Raghunatha, they will accept you. And then you should go and search for Rupa-Raghunatha. Where are Rupa-Raghunatha? They are everywhere but we cannot see. But if Nityananda Prabhu is merciful, Rupa Gosvami will himself come and tell, “Oh come on! Come on!” This is bhakti and a process on how we can develop on all these moods.
Gaura Premanande! Haribol!
So try to develop your Krishna Consciousness. Don’t waste your time.